For most of my life, I have not been the kindest person to myself. I would put myself down, criticize, and be very tough on myself. I did this in order to improve myself, I wanted to be held accountable for my actions and I thought chastising myself would yield results. However, this is not the case.
Instead it made me depressed, anxious, and have low self esteem. I’ve been doing this for years, mostly without my awareness. Now that I am sober, I am better able to listen to my own thoughts and react accordingly.
Now that I am sober, I pledge to start healing myself instead of cutting myself down. I will do my best to be positive and kind to myself, just like I would with a close friend. I will no longer look at the negative side of things. I will catch myself before I fall into a shame spiral. I will not judge myself for having emotions or making mistakes. I will do my best to see the good in others and not let their negative energy affect me.
Thank you God for all that you have done for me. I honestly appreciate all of it. You’ve been too good to me sometimes, I feel as though I don’t deserve all the second chances I’ve been given, but I will show you that it was a good investment and I will dedicate my life to helping others and destroying my ego.
Today is the first day of the rest of my life. I have the ability and the means to do anything I want with my life. All I want is good friends, a good girl, a good job, good health and shelter. As long as I have these things, I will be happy. I don’t need too much, just enough for me to have a happy life. Thank you so much for reading this, I hope you are kind to yourself and your life exceeds your expectations. Peace!