I’d like to start off this blog with a discussion of what recovery actually means. At first, I didn’t even know. It is more than just stopping your drug of choice. It is more than just white-knuckling it through life without your chemical crutch. Recovery is about finding oneself and dealing with issues that have been covered up with your drug/alcohol use.
The first step is stopping using, and it is definitely a hard one, but it is just one step. The next is dealing with the emotions/feelings/pain that surge up from the deep, dark hole that you have stuffed them inside. This is the hardest part, in my opinion. It is difficult to see yourself for who you truly are. It takes a lot of time to simply recognize these issues. I know it took me a while, and I’m still searching within myself. The most important thing I’ve found is to stop blaming others for my mistakes, and take responsibility for my actions.
Recognizing, then dealing with your own issues in a healthy manner is the essence of recovery. It is about becoming the person you always wanted to be. To do the things you’ve always dreamed you’d do. It’s about living life instead of just getting through it. It all starts with love, understanding, kindness, and patience; not for others (although that is important too) but for yourself. Be kind to yourself. Love yourself. Because you are beautiful and special in your own way. Don’t ever apologize for who you are. Peace and love.